Family tree

One of my family secrets, recently discovered, isn’t really a secret just an unknown part of my family tree. A few relatives have been steadfastly researching our ancestors and along with our Dutch and German roots we are also part Swedish. Maybe this explains why every single family member as far back as the early 1800’s have been blue-eyed. Of course I’m the oddball of the family because I adore large brown eyes, you know, the whole “Tall, dark and handsome” thingy. My husband has such beautiful light brown eyes!

I’m sorry to say I’m not that familiar with Swedish culture; I would love to hear from any Internet friends that can fill me in.

Below is my weekly “List of Thanks” to the recent and not so recent that have left comments:

Whatupthen (Ice Climber)

Muddyblog

RuKsaK

Dana

Lauren

Sparkling

Spunga

Suki

Scott

Kyknoord

Thank you!

Sickness, Secrets and Ghosts!

Hello world! That was a wicked infection that ravaged my body and I’m still so overwhelmingly fatigued. Thank you for the “Get Well Wishes”, I cried reading each and everyone.

I’ve missed out on so much. After reading my recent emails I’ve discovered so many wonderful goings-on amongst my friends. One friend found her dream job, another is engaged and yet another is buying her first home. And, I’ve uncovered a few secrets too. Family secrets, the most dangerous kind. ;-)

Once I’ve processed the secrets myself I’ll be able write about them on my blog.

Regarding the post below...I'm stumped. It's a ghost post because how it came to be is a mystery to me. :-)

Tired of being tired

No energy…none. Not only have I endured one bout of upper respiratory crud but while on the mend the evil infirmity crept back into my body and slammed me down once more.

Dear internet friends, it will be some time before I regain my vigor (if I had any before). I’m sorry for the lack of posts. :-(

In the meantime, I’ve been patiently waiting for Big Brother All-Stars to begin. I believe the start date is June 21^st but I’m not sure. I’m not sure about Aras winning Survivor; I really wanted Cirie to win. The Amazing Race wrapped up and my favorite team won for once, yeah!

I’d like to end this post with another installment of me giving thanks/links to the kind bloggers that have left comments for me.

Dr. John

Veronica

Wally

Angie

Pugs

Mandi K

Survivin

Hed

Leon

Kelley

Kay ron

I'll post another list next week and again, THANK YOU!

Taking it easy

I will be out of commission for a short period due to an upper respiratory infection.

Meanwhile, I’d like to thank all of my friends and the kind bloggers surfing by. For whatever it’s worth, I’ve listed several bloggers that have left a comment on my blog and a link to their blog if possible. I think maybe I’ll post one list every week.

Caffeine Driven

Corry

Dawn Marie

Deb

Ella

Himself

Hipmomma

Jax

Kukka-Maria

Mark Base

Omni

Pia

Shirley

Simply Jess

Thaed

Zoe

Thank you for making my miserable world a bit easier. :-)

I just want to go back to bed

I’ve got a doctors appointment later today. Not sure if I simply have a cold, strep throat or pneumonia. With my compromised immune system and the fact that I feel awfully bad I’m not taking any chances.

Now, if I could only find the energy to take a shower, stop coughing and breathe normally that would be great. ;~)

More truth

This is very embarrassing but I have to be honest with myself and my friends. A very large part of the reason I’ve stopped reading my favorite blogs is the commenting factor. I am not equipped with the tools to write and it takes me forever just to write a simple response. Part of my inability to put words together that make sense or convey my thoughts is my own poor self-esteem. The other half of the problem is my illness. I have an auto-immune disease that affects me neurologically and while most people can just whip off a short comment with lightening speed I struggle with just a basic one-line sentence. The transference of thoughts to written words is a huge effort. Therefore, in my mind if I don’t read blogs, I don’t have to worry about commenting. When I read blogs on Blog Explosion or Blog Mad I don’t feel the pressure to comment because the bloggers are new to me or I haven’t reached out my hand in friendship. The anonymous lurking aspect gives me a chance to read and enjoy other’s posts and not worry about making a fool out of myself with some lame, boring comment that took me forever to write.

I am without a doubt one of the most emotional human beings on the planet. As cheesy as it sounds, I get extremely overcome with emotion when I read the comments my posts have inspired. I slowly process what people have written and carry it around with me for a very long time. I also carry your encouragement, kindness and friendship with me all day, every day. I’m deeply sorry that I’m not strong enough to be there for all of you as you are to me.

Answers

After much thought, I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m just overwhelmed when it comes to responding to emails and blog comments. Although being overwhelmed is not the only reason it is the chief reason. I stated before that I get a bit queasy at the thought of reading blogs that I used to read in the past on a daily basis. Before I set up my own blog I used to read tons of blogs everyday along with commenting on just about every blog I came across. Then, after getting my own blog up and running with a few regulars leaving comments and a few drive-by comments it is near impossible for me to keep up. I don’t know how popular bloggers handle it. My blog is considered small-time with very little traffic yet if I were to read all the blogs I used to and leave comments while answering the comments on my own blog I would be writing all day. I’m definitely not a writer. Not to say I don’t enjoy writing, it’s just that it doesn’t come easy for me.

So, how do I resolve this problem…I don’t know. My husband suggested that I turn off the comment section of my blog but then I would miss some really great advice. I’m not sure how selfish it is to keep a blog and only reciprocate when I’m able but I guess that’s the only answer I can come up with at the moment.

Also, I’m going to make a serious effort to get back to reading my favorite blogs again. I may not comment in the beginning but hopefully I can work my way up to it.

Here I go…